Fast Forward

Ever get in a rut and wish you could just fast forward through life?  You know you've been blessed to be where you are, but sometimes you're just over it.  I'm in that spot right now.  My family is doing well and we are happy.  Great things are in store just around the corner.  However, there's also junk looming over our heads and I'm ready to get to the good stuff again.

Sometimes I need more than a blizzard from DQ to get over it.  I had an ugly cry earlier this week and all it did was give me a busting headache.  Well, that wasn't productive.  Or maybe it was.  Who knows.

I'm working on being more grateful about today and trying to stop rushing to the good stuff for there's good to be had, even when it feels hopeless.  The perfect example of this is my friend, Janna.  Last month she got the terrible news that her adult dog, her companion and friend, is terminal.  He is her best friend, they've done life together and I'm more than sad for my friend, it's horrible seeing her enduring his fate.  It's not fair.  Not for Shooter.  Not for Janna.  But see this is where Janna is inspiring; instead of wallowing and grieving over his impending departure, Janna is making a bucket list for Shooter.  Over the last couple of weeks, he's had a sleepover with a beloved skin-kid, visited his vet's office with sugar cookies made in his likeness (seriously, the cutest cookies I've ever seen!), he had a photo shoot with a professional and the photos are precious memories for Janna.  He's been to a dog bakery and she's planned a party for him as well.  She loves Shooter and she's doing everything she can to enjoy today.  It's inspiring and touching.  And admittedly, I tear up with every post I see of hers. The tears are mostly happy for the two of them though.  She's making the best of something super crappy and it's helping her process it. 

Through her grief, I've been inspired to slow down and enjoy today.  Today is all any of us really have anyway.  It's time to stop and smell the roses.  To hear my kids laugh. To watch my littlest on the verge of taking her first steps. To listen to Henry learning to read.  To be the best wife for my husband that works ridiculously hard to provide for his family.  To love with my whole heart instead of just what I feel like giving.  Even if my heart is bumped and bruised along the way, it's not too shattered love and enjoy today.