God's mercy

Tonight, for the first time in at least a couple of months, Henry asked for "Rock a baby" before we put him to bed. I praised God out loud for this gift, this precious, OBVIOUS reminder of the how BIG and marvelous He is!   He was tired and ready for bed, but wanted his Mama to rock him to sleep.  As I rocked him, I felt this overwhelming thankfulness for my son.  I've always loved him, never a doubt about that, but I felt this new-found appreciation for my child.

Like most of you, I've felt a heavy sense of grief in my heart today for the families that were struck by the senseless tragedy in Connecticut.  Henry wanting to cuddle and spend just a few more minutes with me was the obvious sign of God's grace that I needed at just that moment. After I put him to bed, I tearfully told Mike of how awestruck I am by His mercy, His love and compassion for His children. I know that God loves me but when He puts such an obvious reminder right out there for me to see and enjoy, I'm overwhelmed by His love.

I know that we aren't meant to always understand God's plans but I do feel that God knows that it frustrates us. His plan is always out of love and sometimes we're taught painful lessons through the decisions of others. Today's tragedy is just another example of that.  Healing will take place and people will come together but there's a long and painful road ahead of them. God also provides love, mercy and grace in our time's of need and wow, how wonderful His glory feels when you're in His presence.  

Even though our family wasn't directly involved, I've learned the lesson of not taking my family for granted.  Personal tragedy happens daily around the world. You can't turn on the tv or the internet without awful news that has happened in some one's life.  Yes, the tragedy today was of massive proportions, one that we will never fully comprehend.  The tragedy in my own life: why hasn't this lesson of not taking my family and loved ones for granted not permanently resonated with me before tonight? Will it be different this time or will I go back to my old ways of thinking and behaving?  Lord, please keep my feet planted firmly in this path. The path that you have created for me.  

I know that as parents the tragedy today is a huge reminder to hold on to our kids a little tighter, to tell them we love them. More importantly though, we need to do this constantly even as healing takes place. Our children should never ever doubt that Mama and Daddy love them. Keep these feelings tonight and always, cherish your children and thank God for them.